Did You Ever "Borrowed Post xx"

Borrowed from a FB group who borrowed it from another
 "Next month in September it will be Childhood cancer Awareness month - please be aware that everyday in this country 46 children are diagnosed and 7 die.... 'stole' this from a caringbridge site - please read and share."

"Did you ever think that the phone could ring and in a matter of a few seconds your life could be forever changed by just a few words…your child has cancer? Neither did I.

Did you ever think that you could hurt so badly (emotionally) that the physical pain of it would be almost unbearable? Would you believe you could feel this way and not shed a tear…for weeks? Because your child is watching.

Did you ever think you could call the local children’s hospital home?

Did you ever think that there would be a day when the family/child featured on the news and in the paper as the reason for fund-raisers to help cover medical expenses would be yours? Me either.

Did you ever think that you would learn the hard way that the very people who you would have bet would have stood by you and your family in difficult times would be the ones to turn their backs on you or turn on you altogether?

Did you ever think that mere acquaintances or even strangers could become your lifelines and be the very hands of God to you and your family in your darkest days and your times of need?

Did you ever think that you would have to watch as medical professionals donned gloves, masks and gowns to protect themselves from the chemo (poison) they inject into your child in hopes of saving her life?

My child was the first pediatric cancer patient I ever met. Unfortunately I now know that it is MUCH too common. Why don’t we see these kids? Because they are in hospitals or home because of compromised immune systems or…they don’t make it.

Did you ever think that you would have to sit in a conference room and make the decision to treat your dying child with a drug that is likely to cause heart damage, brain damage or secondary cancers later in life? Notice I didn’t say possibly, I said LIKELY.

Did you ever think that there would be a day when you could catch a glimpse of your child as she walks through a room and be compelled to follow her, feel her, stare at her,and compare her to siblings side by side because she might look like there is something a little “off”? Did you ever think that these impulses would last for years and that most cancer moms admit that they last a lifetime.

Did you ever think that the glimpse mentioned above can turn your “normal” day into a nightmare complete with the “kicked in the gut” feeling you are all too familiar with these days?

Did you ever think that your purse/car/kitchen junk drawer would all contain tubes of numbing cream, bulldogs (clips for holding a central line up and out of the way), detachol (medical adhesive remover), zofran (for nausea), a thermometer, and 5/8 needles (because home health always brings the ¾ size that don’t work on a fickle port).

Did you ever think you would have to explain to your other children that their sister might die?

Did you ever think you would have to tell your child that her friend, another child with the same dx has died?

Did you think you would ever have to see the fear in your child’s eyes that relapse could happen to them, too?

Did you ever think that you would watch your child’s doctors talking in the hallway and try to read their facial expressions to prepare yourself for what you are sure is bad news?

Did you think you would ever have to stifle the anger that you feel when people or organizations brag about the millions of dollars they have spent to “beautify” buildings, cities or whatever when you know that if that money had been spent on pediatric cancer research there would be many, MANY more survivors 10 years from now.

Did you ever think that you could feel guilt when your child is doing well and others is not.

Did you ever think that even when your child is doing exceptionally well that your joy could be robbed with fear and dread ? Of course, you just read another child’s blog and learned that while she seemed perfectly happy and healthy 10 days ago she has since been dx’d with relapse and is in the PICU in a coma and brain damage and might not live through the night. This child, could be your child in 10 days.

All of this has happened to us. September is childhood cancer awareness month. Every single day 46 children are diagnosed with cancer. Every single day 7 children die of cancer. The incidence of cancer has increased 30% in the past 30 years. We don’t know why. Cancer most commonly affects previously healthy children with no history of pediatric cancer in their family.

Cancer is an equal opportunity disease. It doesn’t care if you are wealthy or poor, male or female, young or old, black, white or any other color or where you live. All of our children are at risk. Cancer is the number one killer of children by disease. More than AIDS, asthma, and cystic fibrosis combined yet only one new cancer drug has been created in the past 30 years.

Pediatric cancer patients and their families are not usually circulating in society and I believe that is why there is so little awareness. That is why, as my child is venturing back out into the world, I will live in a fishbowl and share our story."

CT scan and Oncologist appointment

today is scan day again and this one is for a CT with oral and IV contrast, Alex's appointment was at 1.30pm so a later one and she had to be at Banksia outies around 11.30am to start everything.
we had heavy traffic heading in and some rain ( not enough though) finally made it to CCS and joined in with the morning tea and crafts Alex and I made reindeer and book marks ( I joined in so Robyn got one too )
we then got a lift to the RCH just up the road and started the day in out-patience ( Banksia) with emla cream on 4 spots and weigh in she has lost a little weight but has grown so evens out some :) weight 26.7 kg and height 121cm
obs done all looked good except she was a little on the lethargic side, she started Contrast soon after that and we had to wait out an hour for cream (emla sort of) to cook, then they came up and asked when she had finished her last drink she was just starting so we had to finish that get canula inserted then head straight to Radiology for the CT so we arrived just before set time and she went in just after set time of 1.30pm,

then back to Banksia to wait to see Dr Tim, it was a busy day today too and he was very behind we knew at 3pm I would not be making it home to pick up Robyn so called home and Hubby got Childcare to drop her home. Alex was enjoying the afternoon just wanting to have her hand back but had to wait for the go ahead from The Dr. while waiting Alex played with two little girls while they waited for their chemo to finish, and they giggled and were having a ball ♥

we finally got into see Dr Tim at about 4.20pm and then had a chat checked scans and all looks stable ( best news of the day and what a Great Christmas Present for us) then organised next scan March 2012, he didn't think we needed bloods so that was a plus too. we finally got out of the hospital and walked down to CCS to get car and to pick up My calender from BRCH Families, Thanks to another mum I know online but is also a Banksia regular ♥

and finally home to enjoy the Christmas season now with no stress for another 3 months, booked in for ECCO, Ultrasound and Chest XRay so will be another long day but how can I complain when we only go what every 3 months I am happy to wait and get the results I need to hear :) but after being in there every week this is great ♥

hiding behind Immy's Robot while playing together

Alex and her favorite oncologist, Dr Tim
Hassall

Cancer it is always there but we need to grow around it so yes she is not in Remission but she is enjoying life now and that is the best gift, we will stand strong against everything she goes through one small step at a Time

Santa Letters

today we woke to find one of our Hermit Crabs has passed over so Alex was very sad but to make her feel better we got mail from the North Pole they both got a letter from Santa and he even knew Robyn slept some of last night in her own bed :), with only a few days to Santa arrives it was a lovely surprise for the girls, good thing Mummy had time alone last night to sort out this and even found north Pole stamps with 2011 stamped on them for authenticity

the hermit crab had been out of his shell for 4 days now and was stressed had lost two legs fight another crab for a shell so we tried everything to help this little one re-shell and stress free away from the others but was not going to happen :(

Alex with her certificate from swimming

Alex and Robyn with Santa when he came visiting our street on thursday afternoon

not much else has happened this week  Alex was promoted up to level 3 in swimming so next year she has a new class and Robyn also gets a new teacher as had to change times and days so they were closer together

Wednesday is scan day and yes scanxiety has hit like normal but all I want for Christmas is to hear that all is still stable and have two healthy Girls and a happy and healthy Family for 2012

Girls also got these emailed to them :) I also am thinking of buying the HD video for keep sakes ♥ as these are removed after Christmas :(

Robyn's Santa video
Alex's Santa video

September scan day

7th September is Alex's scan day and we get to have Ultrasound and X-Ray instead of another CT so less radiation for My Princess and no needles again ♥ 11am for these scans so she must fast for 6 hours before the scan :( not an easy thing to do when she loves to eat but they need the tummy empty to see all that needs to be seen ( tumor near aorta is hidden by the tummy most times. ) I called CCS about parking there and dropping all the toys the girls have either grown out of or no longer need for the families.

scans came back same or close to same so no real change :) but like some days they forgot the tumors near the aorta so we got called back in this is hard to find due to bowel and stomach being in the way so she gets grizzly after this plus being hungry  (VERY HUNGRY). we then waited in the waiting room  not very long for the chest X-Ray to be done before heading up to Banksia to see Dr Tim.  Alex loves her oncologist and she gets excited when he calls her in :)
The Dr was happy with all Alex has and is doing, we just need to watch the pain in her leg and neck but could be growing pains.(Alex has had pain in her bones and tummy the last few weeks so a little worried about this but staying positive plus having a friend up helped keep scanxiety at bay) Alex is now 25.3kg and 119cm tall even the nurses that have not seen her in some time told her to stop growing lol. we got more bravery beads to continue the chain for her and still waiting on the blood transfusion one (2) and some more for injections etc but should get them in Dec when we go back for the next scan.

Dec is booked in for a CT as she has not had one in a little and these like MRI's show more info for the Dr's Alex is also due a ECCO at the end of the year  to check her heart, ( one of the chemo's can have delayed issues after treatment and we do not what that) we will book that at the next appointment and will be done in the new year.

watching the magic school bus

 playing in the RCH playground

 CCS playground

Sitting in front seat for a little drive ( now she is 7 she can but still a little unsure about it myself she is still small she didn't stay long as seat-belt is a little high still so back into the back seat)

Tomorrow is my scans and Dr's appointment to see blood results plus car in for service, then I wait til Oct for gyno appointment to see what I can do more to improve my iron levels or why I am anaemic,

Next CT scan

on Tuesday the girls went to the Dr Alex is still getting pain in her tummy ( scar tissue and possible growing pains???) and Robyn has a chest infection and as we have hospital on Wednesday I wanted to be sure Alex would be ok to go in with or with-out isolation. Robyn also has a lump on her chest so we got an ultrasound but was told it is a birthmark ( deap veins in a bunch. called a hemangioma and is benign link will tell you more.http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmedhealth/PMH0002430/

had to add this Miss Robyn hogging mummies and daddies bed ♥

yesterday (Wednesday) the 9th of March, Robyn went to Pre-School but wanted to stay home, she also slept all night in her own bed which is rare but nice occasionally ♥, her pre-school is trying to raise funds for us with the shave too ♥

 Alex had her CT and Dr's Visit. first I called CCS its the local Childhood cancer support  to see if I could park there as after 2 hours at the RCH it is $20. max and we had a long day ahead, they said yes no worries so I arrived there and rang them to see where they wanted us tpo park, they even gave us a lift to the hospital and told us to call when we finished to be picked up.so straight up to Banksia outpatience and see the nurses we know so well, the weigh Alex and she has lost almost a KG ( Not good but she has been off her food this last few weeks :(  ) magic cream put on and start drinking the contrast ready for the CT at 1.30pm today was hard as she now has no port they had to put in an IV she hates needles so it was a noisy and unhappy experience, we had a wait as Onco/hemo was busy with day surgeries etc and blood transfusions, the dr called us in then decided to wait til after the CT, so down to radiology for CT, get called in after they finally get Alex's chart and Alex wants Mummy to stay with her another new thing she is excessivly clingy now to me even school she wants me to stay with her ♥ back to onco and wait to see Dr and get canula removed. scans show no visible change :) I like that and actually got to see the mass we are keeping an eye on its not as small as I had thought but still it is stable :), we now come back for ultrasound and X-Ray in June so 2.5 months away :), so glad we now have a few months off from that til the next one, and that this one was in the afternoon so she got breaky but then had to fast for a few hours before the CT ( No GA at least as she is a super trooper and lays still) the Onco also told me to watch Robyns Hemangioma as he was not happy with the diagnosis so if it gets larger we go back to a dr but pray its still what the Dr said it is ...

Waiting to get IV and obs done, so she is doing school work hehe

CCS play ground after everything was done and time to relax 

when I got home Hubby tells me he got 2 phone calls one from Banksia about surgery tomorrow for Alex's port!!! she had it removed in December so would be hard to find, and two from Leukaemia foundation about time for the shave tomorrow so we may have a representative from there join us :)


Daddy was away all last week with work so he got home on Monday and the girls were so excited :D they did miss him. he was at the Avalon airshow 2011 and here are some photo's including Zach the dolphin and bertrum bear ( burping bear as Alex has nicknamed him)  the girls sent with daddy getting the close up view

zach and bertrum are on the ground in front, this is a rare shot due to security and timing being just Right Thanks Hubby

Zachary the Dolphin yes the dolphin is pink in the marines arms from Hawaii and Bertrum bear

Note the dates hehe it was 2nd-7th March 2011 :) Hubby forgot to reset the camera date lol


do remember Hubby will be shaving it all off this weekend for the worlds greatest shave :) and I'll be colouring for this great cause, the school is ready and QT will be there at 10am so come and watch the fun if you want :D


you can still sponsor me to Colour... or help me reach my goal and Ill Shave to a No. 4 ( against Alex's wishes though hehe)  she doesnt like seeing mummy now with short hair as I kept mine short with her the whole way through Treatment

ok off to help at school today :) with Robyn and Alex will be happy to have Mummy there too

Scan day with good results in the end

OK today was going to be a long day but OMG was it ever so long with appointments added at the last minute.

5am I was awake and stressed about the day ahead.

6am up and showered getting girls ready the breaky and all the things I needed in the car. grabbed the stroller as Alex gets tired still easily and OMG a spider fell out lucky I was bouncing it on the driveway before shutting it in the boot. so he went splat Sorry!!!

7.15am out the drive and on to childcare to drop Miss Robyn in for the day at this stage thinking I should be home by 3pm at the latest (yeah Right!!!)

9.05am Arrive at the RCH and Banksia out-patience Late but thanks to Brisbane Peek hour traffic. they do Alex's Obs she still has not gained any weight but not an issue. Elma the port ready for access and tell them the time it went on. they access the port to early ARGH poor Alex was screaming :'( so they do bloods etc then flush so its ready for CT at 1.30pm.

9.50am we get into see Dr Tim Alex loves her Dr and he is a wonderful oncologist, we talked about the abscess and Alex's teeth and he got us referred straight away to upstairs and he put it he wanted her treated by someone he knows. so the appointment was made for 2.50pm that afternoon with me running straight up with the referral.

10.35am physio appointment, we discovered that Alex has one leg longer than the other so this will be monitored over time she needs new orthopedics so we need a referral for that and may be lucky to squeeze it in today as well.

11am we finally make it into the wonder Factory and Alex is happy playing and joining in, they had a high school doing a shakespearean play and Alex watched some but got board so off we go to play foosball and paint hehe

11.50 we are back in Banksia to start her oral contrast, we get the drink then head out to the play area with the 1st of 3 drinks over 1.5 hours we play a little then when the next one is due go back into Banksia, ( we were like yo yos in and out of there today) after the second drink we play games in the ward then have the third and go back out for a quick play then toilet stop before radiology for the CT.

1.30pm we arrive on time and then Alex has a small play before we are called in to head down the foot road to where the CT is. Alex knows this drill well and I get to take a photo of her on the CT then I go sit down and wait for her to be done she is such a "Super Trooper" then we head back to Banksia yes we're back hehe but hoped to see the Dr before the Dentist visit although we knew he was also on call so missed him this time. the staff De needled Alex's port then it bled alot so we hat to wait in the room til it settled down.

2.48pm now its time to go see the Dentist upstairs so up we go to another waiting room. we sat and did a puzzle and then the Otho arrived to do Alex's feet lucky as I had forgot about that and Banksia had told her where we were. then we get called into the dental room Alex goes and sits down like the "super Trooper" she is and they check her teeth she is getting use to this all now with 3 visits so far. the abscess is an issue and needs attention NOW they tried to get us in this week like tomorrow or Friday but no luck, appointment was then made for Friday the 12th she will lose the tooth that has the abscess and we will deal with the future issues she may have as they are required... she will have X Rays and depending if any other teeth have abscess issues she will lose them too. but otherwise they will cap her teeth that have the cavities. she has 2 wobbly teeth and it was funny as the dentist (Steven) said a wobbly tooth the High Five to Alex hehe so cool to see these specialists treat children special and make them comfortable. filled in the papers and finally got out and yeap you guessed it back to Banksia to see the Dr before we can go home.

3.20pm in Banksia out-patience waiting for the Dr to squeeze us in between others and call outs. calling home every 20 minutes as I could not get home in time to pick Up Robyn so we had Hubby leave work early and the Childcare dropped Robyn home :) 
4.10pm we get called into see the Dr but now we have no File hehe so a wait for that to come back and then fill Dr Tim in on what Dr Steven has said get scan results (preliminary results but still) the tumours have SHRUNK woohoo OK back in my bubble as I do not want to jinx anything and we are 2 weeks away from our first year of treatment, next thing we discuss is Port Removal. Dr Tim decided its about time to go and well if anything does happen we can cross that bridge when we need to. so another lot of forms and now 2 surgeries for Alex in the next few weeks or so... woohoo no more stress about her port or infection etc. yeap stepping back into the bubble to remember things are good but life is unpredictable.

well we finally get out of the hospital and head home in Peak hour traffic again and arrive home after 6pm Good thing we sorted out Robyn's drop off :)


we also got our invite to Camp Qualities Christmas Party and we will be going

so good news that things are still shrinking but always standing strong that cancer is stupid and can wait and wait, also finding out a few new things that are issues from her treatment but thankfully all treatable and manageable... small steps forward and we are slowly moving forward too.

smiley face in shrek paint

CT scan

playing in the play ground

summer is here with storms

we had a lovely weekend and was very warm and not really summer yet. but then last night we had heavy rain and a lightning show

today Alex went to school she was fine before we left home but once at school she became extremely clingy and would not let me go even to go into class. they also had a relief teacher today so she took Alex's hand and tried to calm her down. I just hope this is not a sign she is coming down with something ARGH!!!

we have Alexandria's CT scan next Wednesday and also see the Dr ( funnily enough see him before the CT so Will not get results that day but think they will be fine Positive thoughts) she will also get reviewed by the physio as her walking and running, and we may need more exercises to follow.

Robyn is fine crazy as most 3 yr old are and OMG a screamer  what did we do wrong as one is an angel and the other the devil in a dress??? we have done nothing different

on one good note I have submitted my first uni assignment and just hope I pass :)

we have still got 2 happy chickens but they have now worked out they can fly a little bit  enough to get out of their tub and we have another 3 weeks give or take before they will be ok to go outside??? they still have a light over them at night for warmth.

Some Normality

we are all doing well. Alex is back at school for the final term of school, she loves school too so that is a good thing...  Alex's class are learning about life as in plants and animals so they are watching grass grow hehe plus they have been watching chickens hatch from eggs so far they have 12 with a few more to hatch and looks like we may be chicken sitting one weekend lol. that doesn't worry us as both Hubby and myself are farm bought up hehe.

Alex has her next scan in under 3 weeks and I know it will be stable but am worried after the last Ultrasound as they said it had grown... good thing I do know US are unpredictable
November is going to be busy too she has the CT on the 3rd then surgery to remove 2-3 baby teeth :( but the dentist thinks she will be good with the "sleepy gas" as alex calls it ( from the RCH DVD they hand out to kids and families its great ) she is back to swimming too and loving every moment of it,

yesterday her school had a working bee to help in their new library so I went in thinking I would stay 1-3 hours yeah right I left just before the 3pm school bell went so 9am - 3pm helping out, I do feel good that I have done something for the school... but Hubby thinks why we pay enough to send her there but I like the school its small and everyone knows each other, and when we move next I may go back to public but that will depend on where we are at the time. its not about the money but how she enjoys the place and I think she would not have come out of her shell at the public school as it was so big and scary for a 5 yr old :(

the weather has been full on here too  Queensland is a semi tropical state of Australia well tropical more so as you go up higher we get the humidity here and the RAIN!!! hehe Rain yes well speaking of Rain we have had 200-400 millimetres in the last 3 days OMG and they are forecasting more for the inner southern part of the state with more floods so I got some washing done today and will bring it in soon as think the Dryer will be over used again ARGH!!!!! ROFL the energy company must love us lol.

Me and My studies well yeah slow but am learning new things assignment 1 due in just over a week and I am still playing with it  assignment 2 is in 3 weeks so a little more time hehe. Oh well can only do as good as I am but want to do the best I can too... (please 3 yr old go to sleep tonight before 10pm so I can study more) Miss Robyn didn't want sleep last night ARGH and ended up in bed with Mummy and Daddy, plus as Alex Still Yes still has that dreaded Cough I was up a few times with her and also lay with her for an hour I love sleeping in her bed though she is so cute roles into me and squeezes mummy close ♥♥♥ it melts my heart ♥♥♥ she is a full on Mummies Girl now if I go out even only to the school after hrs she wants to be with me I thought Robyn was the mummies girl but she is very independent and also Loves her Daddy ♥♥

Robyn loves Child care now too so them moving her up was a good thing I no longer have a screaming child when I drop her in and she enjoys the day :)... she is also fully Toilet trained :) WooHoo no more nappies we still have accidents of a night though but hey I know older kids that wet the bed so we are still doing well.

not much else happening here sorry and no new Photos think I shared them all last time hehe but may try get a couple of the school chickens soon ♥

CT scan etc

Alex has been a good girl with fasting etc. She doesn't need a general so not sure why she had to fast, she is very good at laying very still for the CT (donut to her)
We have seen 5 Dr's today alot are training etc, they are just making sure all is good before we leave.
plus 2 clown Dr's who made Alex's day hehe we could not stop laughing at them, i do have photos just have to wait as they are on my camera and need the computer to get them on here, Alex has her camera too so lots of photos of the pictures in her room.
We are staying a second night so hope to be home tomorrow. They want to know what is causing her infection, so the extra night to be sure its all good, they had to redress her port as it was weeping and sore so Alex was not happy til it was over,
We have seen alot of rain today and last night,
Alex''s new saying and mine to is "Cancer, cancer, stay away, never come back here to play." she is so funny sometimes.
Am missing miss Robyn and daddy though, just glad its not a regular thing to be here, we are at 6 weekly port flush and 8 weekly scans (CT one and ultrasound and XRay the opposite )

Photos

here are some Photos of the girls. no news as Alex's temp is still stable she feels hot but is in normal range on 2 thermometers. I know its a UTI and the CT tomorrow will show me all is still stable and good

 Robyn playing leapster2 being a good girl, Alex having milk in Robyn's cup hehe, she has red blood shot eyes :(  but can still try for a smile, she is glad to be staying home today

not really an update just me thinking staying positive etc ☼

Infection confirmed...

We ended up going to a clinic and getting Alex checked out under oncology orders they decided they want to know asap if it is UTI and start her on Antibiotics asap. we will know fully in 3 days.
we only just got in, had to wait around for 2 hrs ( better then DEM here in Ipswich would have been 6+ ) she went to toilet while waiting which I got a cup to get the sample before I needed to fight for one. but then I noticed a discharge also in her underpants, this freaked me out but as the scans the other week where clear or no change I was thinking infection, we got in just before close and they had prelim results on her Urine sample
she had a definite infection with blood present and a few other things but no ketones, so we signed of on getting results which will be 3 days, and antibiotics then home. we are on watch for fevers and so forth but will be at the RCH on Wednesday for the CT so if she spikes a fever its RCH asap that way we are there for the needed scan etc and they will do fluids etc to help flush her system, just hope its nothing serious causing the UTI, she will stay home tomorrow just in-case she has accidents etc and I can watch her this way too.

Ok I am off to bed as well the next 24-36 hrs are going to be busy...

no more issues Please.......

We had Alex sick with a UTI 3 weeks ago, and now looks like its back just waiting on a call back from our Oncologist as to what we should do next, we are in on Wednesday anyway for CT and bloods plus Dr appointment, so its just to see what they want to do, she is saying it hurts when she does No.1 and she eats Yoghurt etc and drinks lots of water, hope its nothing, but I do stress on everything (sometimes feel like a hypochondriac ) I do know its an issue for kidneys etc when they have UTI's etc and well she only has one Kidney!!! so am only making sure she is looked after so we can stay healthy and move on ♥ I am a good Mother and just looking out for my Girls (Both)

we also have Miss Robyn sick with a cold not bad just a viral infection Dr is happy with just panadol etc for her so no meds :)

Small Steps Forward....

I have started to really try not think about what can happen etc as I need to focus on us (here and Now)  plus this has helped me to stop stressing over everything too. Alex has started getting tummy aches again today and the school have a big excursion to the Baptist church for the day so she will have a fun day to keep her mind away from her aches, yes I stress but hope as the Ultrasound showed nothing that its just growing pains plus we have the CT on wednesday so will know more if there are issues then, as they are also doing follow up bloods to make sure the counts are back to normal again

we finally got Hubbies Tax done so now the waiting begins and well looks like it will go on My car rego and a cheap reliable car for Hubby in those emergency days we need one. I put 2 new booster seats on Layby so that we can get them once we have the car  will also get a Harness for Miss Robyn as she is still under 4 so needs the harness but will be safe then :) the car will help us when its wet or if I am stuck anywhere with either child so Hubby can do the pick-ups or drop-offs, we just need to find a good one that will not cost us more than we have to spend :( as rego etc is still going to kill us as we have a family car and a Motor bike already to keep on the road.

Today is 1 yr since dads Funeral I was in Adelaide this time last year with Robyn. do miss my friends in adelaide but hope to get back one day soon to catch up again. but in saying that it also will always depend on how things are going in this household (health wise etc.) but will not say more as want to stay focused on the good and attract the good :)

Robyn is finally dry all day now so Nappies are slowly becoming a thing of the past :) and she has slept all night the last 3 nights in her own bed (still has 1 breastfeed a day though)  the child care are worried though as she has become clingy but think that is due to the other week when Alex was addmitted and she didnt get picked up by Mummy ♥ she is a strong willed Child so she was good for Daddy and has grown up so much of late...

both girls are doing well Alex's Maths at school has really improved we are also doing lots of sight words this term :) fun fun fun she just is like a computer wanting to learn more and more she is so hungry for it all. Miss Robyn is good to she can now recognise numbers when we are out and about hehe

today is Christmas in July at Hubbies work, so we all went with Hubby to have Dinner and the girls had fun they had pony rides and petting animals plus a Visit from the Jolly Fat man in red hehe, we didnt stay long enough to see him though as both girls where tired and Alex still had a sore tummy, it was her chest actually as I finally got it out of her were it was hurting, she may have a cold so will be waiting on the CT results as I am trying to stop being so over protective and paraniod "well on the outside for others" as I think people think I am insane sometimes and dont want to lose friends over this I need friends to be able to talk etc but only have a few.

I have never done Christmas in July so this was fun for us all,  and got to catch up with a friend who we get to see occassionally up here and have known them since NSW :)

I did have to miss Belly Dancing so will start going back next week :)   but am thinking that pay thursdays may start being this so may have to check out the other days Belly dancing is on

all the animals here are from the same place as the last trip to the hospital even the lady in the pet part was the same :) Alex loved it but still no Piggy as they had no baby pigs to bring along, but we did see baby chickens etc :) and they had Ponies for a ride ♥ my girls are just like mummy and love horses ♥