♥ Awesome Mom ♥

got this in an email so thought I would Post it here something nice ♥ and its so cute

Awesome Mom

Once you have been hit, you have to hit 5 awesome Moms..

Including the one who thought of YOU today and sent it to YOU...

If you get hit again, You will know you are Really awesome!


So hit 5 awesome moms on your friends list to let them know they are awesome!

Before I was a Mom,


I never tripped over toys


or forgot words to a lullaby.


I didn't worry whether or not


my plants were poisonous.


I never thought about immunizations.

Before I was a Mom,


I had never been puked on.


Pooped on.


Chewed on.


Peed on.


I had complete control of my mind


and my thoughts.


I slept all night.

Before I was a Mom,


I never held down a screaming child


so doctors could do tests.


Or give shots.


I never looked into teary eyes and cried.


I never got gloriously happy over a simple grin.


I never sat up late hours at night


watching a baby sleep.

Before I was a Mom,


I never held a sleeping baby just because


I didn't want to put him down.


I never felt my heart break into a million pieces


when I couldn't stop the hurt.


I never knew that something so small


could affect my life so much.


I never knew that I could love someone so much.


I never knew I would love being a Mom.

Before I was a Mom,


I didn't know the feeling of


having my heart outside my body..


I didn't know how special it could feel


to feed a hungry baby.


I didn't know that bond


between a mother and her child regardless of their age..


I didn't know that something so small


could make me feel so important and happy.

Before I was a Mom,


I had never gotten up in the middle of the night


every 10 minutes to make sure all was okay.


I had never known the warmth,


the joy,


the love,


the heartache,


the wonderment


or the satisfaction of being a Mom.


I didn't know I was capable of feeling so much,

before I was a Mom






Send this to someone who you think is an awesome Mom.


May you always be overwhelmed by the Grace of God rather than by the cares of life

Sick :(

well we got into see the Dr and Alex has the Start of bronchitis with a infected throat and ears ,what next so he gave me penicillin as she is allergic to Ceftriaxone and he was hoping she is not to penicillin so I called Oncology back and they said wait to get meds at first as I had to speak to the Dr but to keep an eye on Alex for any change (Temp tiredness etc) so we went home and Robyn had a nap The Dr called me back about 2 hrs later and said start the antibiotics but still keep an eye on her so I went to the chemist to get the script filled. the Dr's instructions where twice daily so I thought morning and evening so didn't start them straight away...

around 3.30pm Alex was playing quietly as she is sick she is a little lethargic but not enough to stress about, she was playing with the thermometer and it started beeping fast ( saying HIGH TEMP so I did it again 2 more times plus with another thermometer and YES it was 38.4 so I ring Oncology to see what they want and well Hospital to be sure she is ok. so I get everything ready to head in (forgot the portable DVD off all things ARGH) we arrived at the hospital around 5.10pm and they isolated her straight away and her temp on way in went up to 39.6 so was climbing. we got settled in the cubical (oncology one luckily as it has a TV lol so Alex was Happy ) then emla (numbing cream) was put on her port for 30-50min so they can access it and get bloods so waiting around for this the Dr checked her over and she was more lethargic and they just wanted to keep an eye on her. he was also worried about her ears and throat as they where red and sore,  after the wait the cream was removed and this started Alex of screaming (Her Normal when its anything to do with needles etc)  the accessed but could not draw blood NOT GOOD so they removed the needle and set up again to do it again and still no luck I was so stressed by now I almost fainted and well its a children's hospital and they are not set up to help adults so I sat down I was so stressed that My Baby girl was going through this they de-accessed the port without heplocking it and said they would do a cannula in her arm so more waiting once cream was on, they came in to put cream on her but she started to get very upset so they decided to skip the cream as she would scream anyway and just get the bloods needed so that was what they did.all done in minutes and we could sit back and relax a little.

Alex dosed while we waited then she perked right up a good sign for us the Dr came in and said its Viral more than likely and we should be home tonight cool and I asked about the antibiotics our Dr gave us and they said no due to her reaction to Ceftriaxone she could be allergic to penicillin too so they gave me some other antibiotics that she can have.  Alex's bloods came back good not high but in the normal and her neutrophils where 5.1 so that's excellent :) so we finally get out of the hospital at 9pm and are happy to head home she is asleep by that time and I give her meds then bed I then settled Robyn and bed for her while Hubby gives me the third degree well I know he just wanted all the details but sometimes when I am stressed I feel like he is blaming me for putting Alex through it all, 

It was a long night with a very unsettled Alex but she got up this morning and NO TEMP since 7am woohoo so its a start and now if she is good tomorrow school like the Dr said, she is happy to go back now though, I took Robyn to Childcare at least so we have a quiet day...

we have to let oncology know about her port at our next visit as it is possibly blocked and this could mean removal so I hope if they do have to remove it then she doesn't have a relapse to have another put in but at least cannula's can be used at every CT which are 3 monthly so our visits may get further apart??? am very worried about the port but must focus on the here and now, Tomorrow is a new day so we take one at a time

Sorry for the drawn out update but had to get it all out :(

Stupid Colds

well Alex has had a cough for a few days but lucky for us No temps them Robyn got it and now I have it too  nice to know they love me enough to share lol, we are suppose to have the Flu shot this week but will call the Hospital and see what we should do and what side effects will be as under 2 weeks for Make-a-wish so we don't want to be ill for that either.

Alex is not  going to school  as i am trying to see the Dr and as her immunizations are not updated yet,  i am to keep watch on her temp and fluid intake and its emergency if that changes ...Robyn may miss Child Care tomorrow if she is still sick but she seams fine this morning  ( Lucky her lol) me I want to crawl back into bed but every night I spend over half of it with Alex as she wants to sleep with Mummy and Robyn is in Mummy and Daddy's bed almost all night ARGH, so I am thinking need some warmer jammies hehe so that when we get another cool night I am not freezing running around the house

Update on the make-a-wish well there is no new news yet but we will have all the details before we leave, we are waiting on the itinerary to know what we are doing, dates and so forth we are looking at doing a few things while down there to make it great for the Girls ( Outback Spectacular is a MUST hehe and the Aqua Duck so far and the beach even in the cold ROFL build a bear too these are from friends telling us how to enjoy the time with things they have all done  Thanks guys we will be kept extra busy I think but will have so many memories to look back on :) )

Photos just of me trapped in the trampoline with the girls hehe they wanted me to stay so attacked every time I tried to escape lol

☆Anzac Day ☆

Well here we are nearing the End of April so far all is still going well for us here and it has started to get cooler typical QLD Australia weather we have Summer and winter but no real in between So April the nights have cooled lot and you can now sleep comfortably. both Girls have colds whish I am worried about but no temps just a cough so keeping an eye on that as it may not be a good thing for us :( now now with only 2 weeks to Make-a-wish

 Alex has been learning about the universe at school too so we are hearing alot about sun and start etc its so cute to see her so open and wanting to learn :)  she is growing up to fast, she will be 6 in just over 2 months and we have her Make-a-wish in 2 weeks so lots of posts, Updates and Photos to follow, next scan is in may its just an Ultrasound and XRay then 6 weeks after that another CT I am so happy to say still no word so all is going well and tumors are Hopefully dead Cells!!!!!

This weekend we have Anzac Day Dawn service and as a Military family it means alot to us, both Hubby and myself have family that fought in WW1 and WW2 plus the other wars :( its about remembering our fallen etc

Friday the 23rd Hubby did a presentation and Alex's school she was looking forward to seeing her daddy at Prime time lol he did well considering it was a first as Alex is only in Prep and we have really only started to get use to the whole school thing but am glad she started this year as Last yr we probably would have done HOME SCHOOLING to keep her away from risk etc!!!  the school has assembly etc on Friday mornings with Prime time and this was hubby's spot this week plus all certificates etc are handed out to students that have done well, this day was all focused on the Anzac tradition etc and was a very moving morning, Hubby was presented with a certificate of thanks from the school captains and he was even moved by it all..

Sunday the 25th we had Dawn service at the School 4.20am and we had a very early start even earlier that if I had to be at the Hospital etc for surgery or tests etc they start at 6am so this was a major shock to us all so I was ready with Girls dressed in warm cloths and then bed early for all :) Hubby lead the Catafalque party (this is what this is sorry easier to post this than explain lol http://www.defence.gov.au/army/asod/documents/cerev1/20.pdf ) with 4 troops under him a first as he is now at that rank to do it :) then Breaky at the school home for a little then we will be off to base at the SGT mess ( this is the exclusive club  only Sgt, FSgt and Warrant Officers "SNCO" Senior Non commissioned Officers can get in where as the officers mess you can join so is not as exclusive as having to earn the rank ) but today is open to all ranks as its Anzac day

  "I am so proud of My Man 20 yrs of service to the Australian RAAF"

I took some photos here they are in order of appearance.

- the Ipswich Church as its Ipswich 150 yrs Birthday and festival start

- Alex and Robyn on a Carousel Ride  at the mall

- Alex in winter uniform ready to go back to school

- Daddy and his Girls Friday

- Anzac Day Dawn service IAS before and after

☆♥~ keep moving forward ~♥☆

Well we have not heard about the CT Alex had on Wednesday so am hoping it is "No News is Good new"  but just as I started to relax last night, Alex had an accident she bumped the port-a-cath that is slightly red due to the tape they use ( she is now showing signs of a allergic reaction to it ARGH)  and it was inflamed so me being me stressed we called the after hrs No. for Banksia and they said to watch it and her and bring her in if it gets bad or temps start to rise, Hubby just said I was being silly and almost started a fight but I backed down and walked away trying to stay positive as the last time he said that it was not gas etc but CANCER!!! and I will always stress about the girls health after this.

Sorry needed to vent

Now back to me positive looking at a wonderful time we will be having in a few weeks for Alexandria's Make-a-wish with lots of love and hugs and hopefully some relaxing times for all.


have been going through old Home movies we got the video camera in Sepetmber 2004 so its good to look at Alex as a 2 month old hehe have decided to burn them to DVD so as they are only VCD have been busy but hoping it works

Today Dr visit and CT

another CT day today and we always have an early start today no Different 5.30am get up :o then get everyone ready with Robyn dropped of at Childcare at 6.30-7am we had to be at the hospital at 8.30 at the latest and always arrive in time with luck hehe. and today we arrived with 10 min to spare as a bus had broken down on the Ipswich moterway ARGH... Alex started her Contrast drink at 8.45am with no issues and we had weight and all the other obs done she has gained a small amount just over 20kgs now can not beleive she was 23+ this time last year and we also have had a growth spurt she is at the 110+cm this week :) she had 2 more 100ml of contrast to drink at 9.15 and 9.45 so we sat around outpatience and Alex joined in with the RCH School fun. we got called in to see the Dr early this week before scan had even been done but well results would not be in til tomorrow anyway so Dr Tim said get it out the way so we did then rushed to the CT (Radiology dept)

this week I had to tell Dr Tim Alex has had some pain around the side her Kidney was and its up where the liver is so am hoping the CT is all clear but we will know when he gets the results if anything is not looking good just think we will be fine with no change ♥

Alex does really well for her scans too she lies still and they love her there no sedation etc, she even leaves Mummy outside ( My Big Girl lol). we got to see the Clown Dr's Too and I took a quick Snap hehe always something special, then back to Outpatience to wait to have Port de accessed which they forgot about us hehe but I just went back up to see what was happening and they did it all straight away so then we could leave WooHoo

Let the Count down begin

Alex's Make-a-Wish is now in 26 days and all details are in we will have a special day when they come around or meet somewhere special to present her with it all :)
we will try keep focused on the good time we will have soon. with Peter's Birthday  in 25 days and Mothers day is in 27 days haha a good week to do things :) we plan to do the Outback Spectacular as Alex loves Horses ( Just like her mummy lol and Sister so thats a family trait in my blood haha) this will be all the birthdays etc we missed last year ( My 40th Alex's 5th Peters 36th and mothers day and Fathers day all together Miss Robyn was the lucky one hehe being before and after treatment so we did something for her but she will also be involved ♥ would never make her miss anything as she has also suffered in her own way like everyone in this family)
I have also been told I will get to do the dolphin part with Alex :)

Alex also has her CT on wednesday the 14th, only 2 days away, with a Visit to Dr Tim Hassall as well Alex does love her Dr :)  even though we are only in there every 6 weeks its still something I hate doing as I just wish it was gone with no chance of return but No.  she hates port access etc as she has such a big break and screams the Banksia Outpatience Oncology dept down I know others do to but this is My big Baby Girl and I hate hearing her upset. this is something I am not looking forward to but think it will be good and no growth well I must stay Possitive. this is my new motto to stay possitive and hope it attracts good and Possitive as I have been having bad dreams and well so has Alex :( but hers are kids dreams about things she dont like (Bats, Monsters etc hehe we have bats fly over here every night lol) so the other night we had all 4 of us in one bed OMG what a squishy night but was great to be so close, Alex hates it if I go to far she has become a real Mummy's Girl wanting me with her for everything which can be hard as Daddy can not deal with Robyn :( I so want to be there with her though like every mother ♥

Pete had a mate from NSW well we knew him there but he now lives in the NT come around Friday night the 9th April was good to see him and to see Hubby relax some as he was able to talk, this guy is a father and was unsettled at what Alex had been through but well it Happens and we have to live one day at a time and move forward, what else do we have,

so we can now officially start to look forward to Alex's Special week and make lots of great Memories for us all Even Robyn

* must remember to charge batteries for Cam corder and Camera hehe as need lots of Photos for family and friends in SA that miss out on everything

just a small update on us all

well I have been back to the Dr and all my tests are good I am tired due to stress and slight depression and  it may pass in time bloods etc are all great except my Haemoglobin's  are low gotta love the blood counts haha know to much after what Alex has been through but at least I have good health and am going to try get fit as it is a good stress relief and think I need it.

Alex has her CT next Wednesday so just hope it is also all good with no Growth  lucky we are on school holidays this week and next so even better for us,

Waiting on confirmation on dates for Alex's Make a wish as we put in 3 different dates but should have put the next year as well, if iwe get the dates we had as first preference its under 5 weeks away and we are all looking forward to Alex doing what she so wants to do a beach holiday and dolphins we did not expect it as she was still young and she did have a big ask  but was surprised and over joyed when we got the note to say she was getting what she asked for ♥ ♥ we miss out on the camp quality open day with the Navy here in Brisbane though as it is the weekend we get home and well by the time we went back in would get there at the end so will have to keep an eye out for the next thing, but Hubby has asked them for details so his work can do some support  why not give back :)

Keep my girl and our family in your thoughts and hope this dreaded disease one day is cured with no more to suffer as so many have :(  ♥

thinking of all our friends battling this and hope they to see a light at the end of this tunnel

~* Easter Weekend, and Family Fun*~

well we are here now on Monday of the Easter weekend and so far it has been good,

Saturday we had a Fancy Dress Party (30th Birthday) and we had a ball we all got dressed up too ♥ we stayed the night and well the girls stayed up til 12 midnight OMG but they slept well with no issues etc,  the Girls had a great time with the other children there too and wanted to stay longer, was good to relax a little

Sunday we drove home we got to also drive through the CLEM 7 Tunnel in Brisbane both ways as it was Toll free til the 5th so why not have a squiz lol, we did the egg hunt etc with the girls they got a humpty dumpty egg each and a breaky set each too, these where sat on their beds as a surprise, plus some eggs scattered around the back yard in the shade lol, a Easter with no chemo so both girls have enjoyed their chocolate alot lol..

this week is test week but not for Alex but me ( nothing serious just Wednesday the results from Ultrasound and Tuesday a mammogram should all be good its all stress related and I should not be stressing now as we are over the worst and hope we don't have  a relapse or anything, Alex is doing well and is on school Holidays for 2 weeks and we have a scan (CT) on the 14th so hope it is clear  well no growth as it will never be clear :( due to in operable position of the lymph node Tumors :(  we are still having issues with what she will eat but Saturday she tried the lovely meat we had at the party a first for Miss Alex and a big smile from me ♥

OK here are the only photo's I took as I dropped my camera while helping Miss Alex and it stopped working ARGH :( so not happy

The 30th Birthday Dress up have others but this is us all dressed up :)

April, April, April

wow its April and this month no bad memories this time last year we finally got the all clear to go home but when they first told us we thought it was an april fools Joke,  but once they said yes we could well there was no stopping us haha, Easter last year was hard as Miss Alex hated everything sweet wise etc and we had so much stress etc that it just went by with no thought from us really, so this year being Chemo free will be great.
Saturday we have a 30th Birthday as well in Brisbane and will have a great time with good Friends and the girls will have fun too, its a full Fancy Dress too hehe so will post Photos later

(*~ Added Thanks to Rach and Amanda for making our costumes too you Guys Rock Haha~*)

also not happy as I broke a tooth last night so now have to get into a dentist ARGH now just hope its an end to last month and that we will have a good month this one!

Must add a special happy Birthday to one special little Princess battling this demon Cancer she will be 6 this month ( 13 to be older than her Big Bro) but want to send Positive Vibes to Imogen and her Family for a wonderful and Happy Birthday Party on saturday and a event free Easter sending energy and Pain free vibes to such a special bright Star in so many lives ♥ please keep Imogen and her Family in your thoughts and Prayers 
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