And another Hospital trip

well Like I said we had all been sick this weekend and Alex had a sore throat like me (but  it stopped hurting earlier so I tried to relax as you do)  then this afternoon her temps started back up 37.9 and was not going down and she is shivering so we called the After hours Oncology dept at Brisbane and have been told Hopsital asap. so off to Ipswich DEM ( God I hope they treat us better than the last time ARGH...) emla on her port for bloods etc... just hope the bloods are all good so we can come home and wonder if she will be allowed to go to school and swimming tomorrow???
will update once we get back

Its February already :o

OMG february is here as of tomorrow   this year is going to fast, second week of school starts tomorrow and alex has swimming lessons straight up. wow no waiting to start them hey, but it will only be for the first term then they will move onto other PE lessons?

we all ended up sick over the weekend ( except daddy but he just says he is tough lol) I had a throat infection and so did alex Robyn had a cold for a few days but the girls are good now so thats a big bonus :)

I finishesd another assignment too only one to go then I think I have  to to a job placement??? not sure as will have to inquire so that I can move on from this and start my next project ( GET FIT LOL)

this weekend I to started to murn dad and other things we have now cut all ties with all family and only talking to friends ( some are family)  we have decided its about us and to make the best of what we have, I had joined a group with cancer mums and read a few things that upset me a little about alex's condition but we know of people that have lived into adulthood so we just hope alex has a good life and will do our best to enjoy what time she has  ( and please let it be a long time) 

what is up this month???

14th Valentines day not much happening but should be nice to do something small.

24th is alex's Ultra sound and XRay  plus Dr's appointment and bloods and port flush.

by the end of this month we should have the intinary for alex's make-a-wish.

will leave it at this and try and get some new photos soon too as to show our girl with more hair :) ♥

♥1st day of School & My 1st Me Day♥

1st day at school was today and it was also my first me day :) didnt do alot wanted to go to the gym and do some baking but did do some house work lol. we did have a very hot Queensland day of 38o well 28o up here is a killer with the humidity  as I miss Adelaide and Newcastle ( especially Newcastle as it had no water restrictions and sprinklers for the kids was fun :)  )

Alex had a ball so was happy about that :) Robyn loves Childcare so no issues there either so  its all looking good, Robyn was drentched as they got into the tape ( toilet areas ) and she got a jelly bean for using the toilet so TT is starting again :)

no Dr's appointments til the 24th so  no stress at the moment and had update from Public trustee about dad's estate and all going well :) we should get a small amount out of it but I do not care all I wanted was his bills paid and none for us and my sister ( but not going into any more about that as its trouble ZONE)

well I have also started another BLOG this one is on photography as I am learning and hope to oneday say I am able to sell my work
Mazz's Photography journey

Left; Alex in daddies hat,       Right;  school day today photo

☆♥~Happy Birthday Little Princess~♥☆

Happy Birthday Robyn

today you turn 3♥ ♥ ♥

we had a friend stop around for a little while bearing gifts for Robyn (her God Daughter) Robyn has 2 godmothers and 1 godfather but the rest live in Adelaide so have not seen us much Jon did come up in August though :)...

we also had gifts arrive all week for her ( grandparents and Aunty Cheryl ) plus the couple we have here too

I have a great night out with some friends  OMG its been ages since I went out and danced etc felt like a teen but drank water and lemonade so was a good girl. also I drove so was good to have the extra can with us to help do the drop offs on way home )... Thanks Girls for a lovley evening out and I got home to a quiet house with both girls sleeping through with no wake-ups til after 7am :)  (Happy Birthday Robyn ♥♥♥ Mummy Loves you)

this is Alex in her uniform  we are all ready for school next week  (well she is I am not :-/ )

☆weekend and Happiness☆

well friday is here and this weekend it the Australia day weekend so it is special to us especially as Hubby is in the defence, and we are proud Aussies ♥

Wednesday Robyn had Child care again she loves going and next week will be my first me day OMG what will I do with myself I have never had a day to me since having the girls (I will miss them both :( sad I know but I love them so much lol♥) so Alex and myself got stuck into cleaning the house I used space bags to put all the stuffed toys away and now they take up 1/4 of the space hehe saves me throwing them away but I was nice and left some out, think I need to get some toy tubs to do a change of toys every week or so so the girls only have some out at a time???

Thursday Alex's school books arrived  so now have to cover them hehe what fun lol also we finalized all Alex's school things fee's etc as we went private with her was kicking the budget but am happy with my choice of schools. got uniforms and so forth we have books to cover soon too argh but will be nice she will love school, will take a photo next week of her dressed in her uniform too ♥

Friday (today ) not much happened during the day but  tonight I am going out with some friends on a girls night we all needed a good time away from the every day and this is it :)  we are having dinner and drinks ( non alcoholic for me as I am driving there and not a big drinker anyway lol) but will be good to get away from the normal mum etc lol.. Hubby is great and is feeding the girls and watching them til I get home??? not sure how long I will be out for though hehe

Saturday is Miss Robyn's 3rd Birthday  "Happy Birthday Little Princess♥"

was suppose to have a few people come but long weekend etc everyone had plans so will be a fun family day :) I got her a icecream freddo cake (green lol) and will be doing the photography mum thing lol

Childhood Cancer Event Sponsorship "Tour Down Under"

Hi again well I have a friend that's dad is doing the tour down under this week and would like sponsors so if you can help this great cause  please follow link then scroll down to "Ken Hughes" so many children suffer cancer and even the smallest thing can help search for a cure ♥

childhood cancer event

also we got a call today to say we are penciled in for early May for Alex's Make-A-Wish so it will be around hubbies birthday the same time Alex was to have her surgery last year but was ill so had a week delay  but we will have a happier year with lots of wonderful memories to look back on too, this year is really starting to look bright for us  and I dont want to jinx us or rub it in to others but just wanted to share our happiness  ♥♥

Ending's And Beginning's

Just after the fall on friday

well I have had to stand tall and make some hard decisions and the hardest was to cut all ties with my sister, the negativity that she spreads is hard to live with and we do not need that in our lives plus the use of my daughters to get to me will end now. I have made this choice as I am not her parent and I owe her Nothing she had so much when I had nothing I still got through it all but she thinks she helped me, with what charging 3 times the amount for fuel to drive me some where I always paid straight away but still owe... for me giving her discounted fairs in the taxi ( only covering the owners share not getting anything for me and being at her beck and call when she wanted me but disowning myself and dad til she lost everything, I know she drinks but she tells the world that I do not drink any more then in the same breath will say I have not eaten today but had a can of Jim beam, I wish her all the best in life but she will not destroy mine anymore she is one person on one income and earns more than we do... we are 4 living on one income and need the rent , car, health insurance that has to be paid.

I am HAPPY and love my little family and I do not care who is jealous of that fact as we make our own lives and "not others", we chose the road we take "Not Others", we must live with our decisions "Not Others", if we want more we work for it not throw blame as that only causes more issues as we are not dealing with the real reason we are not happy...

we are a family of 4 on 1 income, and we do well with what we have. we are going to have family fun times over the next year as now is our time, last year was hell and we need to recover, this year will be special with whatever is thrown at us :)  ♥♥♥

♥above are some photos of the girls I took  am doing a photo a day challenge to try improve my photography  slowly getting better♥

*~* For want of a good weekend*~*

Well the weekend is here and I am staying positive trying to not let others get me down this world gives everyone something to deal with and we need to stand tall and work out how to get through it these are always hard but its life and we have to deal with it and can not throw blame on others.

Yesterday Miss Robyn climbed up the computer chair back and was trying to get something from the bench when tragedy struck she went flying big time and now has concussion ( and we had a almost 5 hr wait in emergency dept here in Ipswich)  I think I panicked more then I needed to but after what we have been through and seen I always do with both girls

Today I am just going to rest as I got home at 6am Hubby got up after a small nap to keep Alex entertained while I had a small sleep with Robyn. Robyn is fine just headaches and I have to keep eye out for some small things and big ones too over a 48 hr period from incident... suppose I have given some dirt for my sister to use by Robyn getting hurt she always thinks I am a bad mother, plus as we have Make-a-wish coming up something else we have taken advantage off ( but its funny as Alex would not have got it if she was not entitled to any of this)

Hubby has decided to do the RELAY FOR LIFE this year so will be chasing donations for the cancer council once his registration goes through. I wanted to do it as well but have decided on the pink run in may :) we are giving back to the cancer societies even as we still use them :)

CT and Dr's Visit Wednesday

Well yesterday, Wednesday the 13th of January Alex had her CT Scan with Contrast, it was an early start for us all Robyn went into Child care for the day as I would be alone at the hospital with Alex and as we also had to 1.30pm to see Dr Tim. all was good except Alex has lost another 300g so not good but she is healthy and seams like so many others just has gone of normal food so will be supplementing her milk with pediasure to give her the added vitamins at least :)   we also are now off all meds WOOHOO no more making her take them hehe now she will only get panadol if she needs it lol OMG the small things that make ones day and today had a few lol♥ plus the contrast she drank with out any fight  my little girls growing up to fast :(...

The Dr has filled me in on the next step if the nodes start growing again as he and us would have loved to have seen them removed with the Kidney. but we have to wait and keep an eye on these nodes to be sure that they do not grow and IF ( I say IF as we pray they don't) we will be looking a surgery again to try removal or part removal but that is something I do not want to think about right now.....

on our way home Alex wanted Hungry Jacks so I stopped at the one on the way home in Brisbane and the manager remembered us and gave us our meal free ( I didn't expect this was so nice ♥) he also asked how we are doing and wished us a belated happy Christmas and New year how nice can people be ♥

Robyn  enjoyed her day at Child care and is now going every Wednesday something that will hit our pockets but will be good for her and for me :) I can not believe Miss Robyn is 3 in under 2 weeks :o

we have had a few fights with the girls too Monday and Tuesday Miss Robyn pushed Alex out of the trampoline this being the 2nd time Alex has fallen out and hurt herself this time hitting her head and grazing her back so I was on watch that night for concussion etc but she was ok.

Today I have been told by my sisters boyfriend (who she says isn't her boyfriend) that I have lied to her about money from dad I have all the receipts etc and will only deal with public trustee not her as I have no money and used none on me or my family it went on the funeral

But on a better note Alex has had her wish Granted and this will bite me on my butt as my sister will say I used dads money for this trip !!! ( sorry for Vent am so pissed off at it all am trying to stand strong for my family)

 So we have done papers to be sent in and looks like she will get the dolphin experience I was at the end thinking we would have missed that part though :( but so happy she will do it and we will get the photo to look back on, Robyn wanted to go for it to but she would still be to small so when we leave QLD I will do the family one for us all as an experience to remember :)

top  :- asleep on lounge

above:- at the hospital after CT waiting to see Dr's

left:- at the wonderfactory at the hospital still waiting.

~*Sad Day*~

 Left ~ My dad & Mum early years
~♥ Happy 70th Birthday Dad ♥~
also today would be my Dad's 70th Birthday its only been almost 7 months and I still have not really grieved its so hard as I am in QLD and everyone and everything is in Adelaide well SA. wish I had the money to just drive down so I could clean out his place and maybe that would help the grieving process :'( doesn't help that My sister is still not talking to me unless its to blame me for another job loss or car payments she can not afford (I am not going to let her get me down anymore as I have enough on my plate with the Girls etc)

 Left ~ Dad with alex she was 7 months old :) Miss you Dad RIP.

well today is Hubby's day to go back to work so am feeling sad and the girl already miss their Daddy lol. we have had a fun holiday this year with movie world and sea world plus seeing friends from Adelaide was great ♥

Alex has her CT on Wednesday so hope all goes well and Robyn will be in Child care and think it will be every week from now on so a Me day soon hehe

also a new photo Miss Alex loves seeing her hair growing back and here is yesterdays photo with more hair ♥have added another photo of Miss Robyn My cheeky little lady she is but I have so much love for these 2 my heart swells with love and joy when they do something new and when we get good results with Alex :'(  ♥

weekend Plans Change

Yesterday- Friday the 8th January we went to the SGT mess to catch up with friends was a great day out then home for another visitor to have beer with Hubby lol

today Saturday the 9th Jan I was suppose to have a Tupperware party but as no one was able to come was a little silly to have the consultant come all that way for no one , so we changed it to a catalogue party letting anyone know they can order and let me know by Wednesday if they want anything... so had a Saturday and Sunday free, and as Hubby goes back to work on Monday wanted to do something Saturday so he could relax( try anyway) on Sunday
Saturday we decided SEAWORLD was calling we had the tickets and as Robyn is still under 3 we would go hehe,  girls got all excited but another long drive to get there lucky we have E-tags now so that's a help. Gold Coast here we come hehe, we got to see the sharks and had the all you can eat plus bought sipper bottles and got free refills there too :) Alex got a photo with a seal and a free seal stuffed toy to share with Robyn, they went on the merry go round and met Bert and Ernie from sesame street lol,    girls had a great time with lots of photo's for memories ♥

so tired now though but we did have a wonderful day there and met another Family that are waiting on their Make-a-wish too they are doing the same as us but in June we are still waiting on approval but its no rush for us like so many others out there.

Left-- Pete and Alex at the mess yesterday

Above Right-- the star fish at Seaworld

Left-- wanted Pirates

Above-- sesame street beach

Below left-- Alex got a pat the seal and photo so here it is :)

Below right-- Big Bird

Above left - Bert and Ernie with me and girls 

Above Right - The dolphins with the trainers

☆just like any other day☆

well today we went and got some things ready for the start of school Alex has now got black shoes ( sneakers with Velcro) the school said these where fine for this year Prep. we are waiting on books to arrive next week,

I had a scare with Alex this arvo too she had a couple of blood noses this is not like her so hope its just the weather up here and nothing underlying :(. also we got the details for her CT scan on Wednesday so i called the childcare centre to get Robyn in for the day as Hubby is back at work next week, so will ask the Dr about the nose bleeds???

we said a sad good by to our friends from Adelaide they are back on the road home so will miss them but had a great time while they where up here.. its hard being so far away from friends etc but that's life go where the work is and at least we have a wonderful oncologist up here too

Hubby put up my Christmas present too today up above my computer hehe here is a photo lol

Movie world

well today we went to movie world it was great :)

Alex and Robyn met tweety and bugs, we watched Shrek 4d it was brillient, watch the Austin Powers street show lol. went and played some side shows hehe girls won 4 toys lol ( with my help haha)

I took Alex on the Wild West Falls Ride Hubby tried to get robyn on but she was 5 mm short so they sat out. then Hubby went on with one of our friends from Adelaide and I took Photos hehe.. we then went on the dogem cars ( Myself and Alex Robyn was to short again :(  ) then off to the kids area the girls went on the merry-go-round, a train, tweety ride ( cages that go up in the air) and the kids size dogems lol.. then back to catch up with friends they wanted Hubby to go on the Lethal Weapon ride with one of them so he said No and I did we got thunder just before we got on then the skyes opened again on us lol and it was awesome  wet but an adrenilin rush plus lol

we did try the scooby doo ride but Alex was 5 mm to short for that and have been told it is scary lol

after a long wet day out we went home tired but happy as we had a great family day with friends and memories ♥ got Hungry Jacks for an early dinner as it was the Girls choice hehe

OK Top is the storyboard of the wild west falls ride was fun and wet lol

the 5 at the bottom are;

 top left: Robyn with a lollypop

Top right: girls on a train after a downpour

bottom left: is the girls in the tweety cage ride

Bottom Right: is the Lethal weapon ride hehe fun :p

and the last one is tweety giving the girls a warm welcome to Movie world

♥~Hair is Slowly Returning~♥

Sorry about the second post in one day but this had to be told ♥

Miss Alex has been asking every day when will my hair grow back so today's photo shows the eye brows, eye lashes and stubble that is slowly returning

those small things in life that make your day ♥

☆~First Visitors for the new year ~☆

well yesterday the 1st of January 2010 was a great day we had a lovely visit from Jason and his new Wife Kim they are up here on holidays (Honeymooners lol) they came bearing gifts (Christmas pressies☆  hehe) so the girls got very spoilt hehe, we also had a visit from Jason's Mum and dad  they all stayed for a BBQ lunch then went back to their cabins but Jason and Kim came back for a few drinks hehe ( well Kim did Jason dont drink ) and to play Wii with Alex and us lol

Today we cleaned up and pulled down the lights outside and the tree so we are now officially over Christmas but still waiting on one parcel to arrive.....
we have made plans to go to Movie world with them soon so will be a great day out again the girls are looking forward to that too

Above; Jason and Kim           
 Left  Margret and George                    
Below; Pete             
 Bottom Right; Jason and Kim Playing Wii with Alex and Alex was winning lol